I’ve resisted buying a house for a long time and not just because I haven’t always been the most responible fiscal person. No, it was fear.

I’ve been single for a looooooooong time and, as far as I can tell, will continue to be for an even longer time. (That’s not an invitation for pity, 97% of the time I’m pretty darn happy with my singleton.) The thought of owning a house all on my own? Scares the shit out of me.

It’s not even a money issue (though, of course, that also plays a part). It’s that lack of another person to share the stress with you. Don’t ever underestimate the value of that. I’m not sure it makes up for dealing with all of the other person’s idiosyncrasies but, when you’re single, it sure seems like it does!

But the time has finally come to face my fear. I’m not taking any steps to leave Orlando and, much as I love the friends I live with now, I’m ready to have my own space again. And this time I want it to truly be my space. No more scrambling to find a place that will accept 3 cats or worrying about what those cats are doing every second once I’ve found such a place. No more sharing a driveway with dozens of others or worrying my alarm will wake the neighbors sharing my bedroom wall. It may still scare me but I’m ready to put down some roots.

So, if updates here seem a little sporadic or I seem a bit flustered, now you have an idea why. I’ve already taken the first steps of the process. I’ve been pre-approved. Not that it’s all kittens and rainbows from here but at least I’ve gotten past that first hurdle.

Next up is trying to find a place within my budget that I like. Even with the large number of houses on the market right now, this step seems to be a lot harder than I anticipated. I probably won’t be posting updates on every step of the process (it’s a little too emotional and mercurial for that) but I will check back in once I’ve made some forward progress. And hopefully that’ll lead to some moaning and groaning about moving… AGAIN.

PS: Last week at this time I was shoving my hands in a tank with a snake. Eek! Stay tuned for more details on THAT.